I was looking for someone like that for a long time, he really was different from everything I ever experienced before. I got super extremly shy but through him I got to know myself a lot better.
I am fine, thinking about other things, but sometimes I get reminded and have so much feelings.
miss him lots

my moms boyfriend roger and his father owns the towns cinema. yesterday i went to help out by serving coffee to the old people coming to the 2 am matinee. can you imagine how happy people can become from a little free coffee and a bun. i was shown around, i always wanted to see how it really works and how it looks like where the machine man sits, i also got a chance to look through the little window right above where all the people sits.

it’s such an old beautiful theatre it has been there for 90 years, it has a golden ruffle curtain that gets pulled away when the previews starts, and there is a balcony where you can sit if you’re lucky. On Wednesday evenings they show
old classics, i like that a lot, breakfast at tiffany´s was one of them, but that one i saw last month with the circle. i miss my circle.

by the way i don’t have a charger for my camera that works here, that kind of annoys me a bit.  
but here´s my 24 little presents thingi christmas sock that i got
todays gift was a fortune cookie with a little message

"relish the transitions in your life-
they will happen regardless"

it´s like someone sits down and makes those small cookies only for me, not really, but i can almost always use them in my life
i´m in progress of making a years experiences to nice memories..

the parents arranged a party for me it was supposed to be a surprise party, but of course i found out
we had a lot of food (the dad made swedish meatballs and mashed potatoes for us) and people they brought a lot of cakes.
very lovely evening, I really appreciate it
it was nice to have everybody there so I could just walk around and give away a million hugs
there was so much love in the air, i couldn´t even dream of a better party 
and i could never imagine to get friends like that so quickly
it was just lovely

my last weekends in new york i went to a couple of museums, i really wanted to go to tim burtons exhibition, so I did. that was so brilliant, the man is a genious, and I actually got to se the “voodoo dollgirl” from The Melancholy Death of Oyster Boy in real life, I couldn´t take any pictures though.

I am grateful to all those who I hold dear,
everything I found this year,
for my youth,
that I have exactly everything that I need,
that i every day have a chance to reform and live my life fully  

I think I already like this holiday, and I´m going to bring it and make it alive in my own home.  

Yesterday me and the girls went with the brownies troup to deliver meals at a nursinghome for old people. The girls gave them cards, flowers and sang songs. That touched me a lot, I was standing in the back, couldn´t hold back my tears. I usually spend my summers with seniors and I know how much those visits mean to them. When I saw this old man in his pyjamas conduct the kids singing, he was so playful and his eyes was glowing. I´m so thankful to have those experiences through my years I learned a lot, and it made me see things from a different view.

kiddos have shortdays in school so we just doing things that we like, playing dollies is a big favorite, i painted a nu-nu-bug and we enjoying going to the beach



tomorrow is thanksgiving, my first one, and i´m a bit excited, if i like it i´ll maybe bring the tradition back to sweden. it´s a big homecoming week so we met some new friends, tonight we´re going out dancin´ 

it´s a beautiful beautiful movie
about this innocent young woman who fells in love with an older man, who seems quite harmless and exciting, her life becomes a tiny bit more interesting
but who would have guessed

godmorgon!

Jag hoppas på att solen ska titta fram idag, men det ser lovande ut! Ta tåget in till stan tidigt en lördagsmorgon är något av det bästa jag vet, jag föredrar att spatsera runt själv för då kan jag göra precis som jag vill, & ja jag njuter verkligen av min sista tid här.
Tänkte besöka julbassaden på svenska kyrkan, gå på museum, handla skor i sono, äta spenastpizza på 14 th street & så ska jag försöka hitta tillbaksa till den underbara flee market uptown.

ha en fin dag!

beautiful day
we went to the beach to watch the sunset, then we went out for dinner
i have such nice friends. i like you all