Something really bad happend tonight, and this song really makes sense.

We had a fun time watching the big super bowl game tonight in a bar in Stamford.

On our way home, I was driving the car, we were driving on the big Route 95, so there is many different files. I was going towards an exit so I decided to change line, I looked in the mirrors and I didn't see anything but as soon as I changed lane I was crashing into a truck, really badly. He was in my dead angle I didn't see him and he didn't see me.

I remember that I thought, no this isn't happening not here not now. But I was lucky I just realized it so fast and pulled over, back again. All of us were fine. I was so scared, my hole body was shaking, and it still does even if it was like 3 hors ago.

The driver came outside but I was just in shock and I didn't want to go outside because I didn't want to see what shape the car was in. I was still thinking that this is just a bad dream, not happening.

Since it's not my car and everything I just worried for it, I didn't think of anything else, and what my host parents was going to think of me now. 

I could barely open the door. My side of the car was smashed, and the front window is broken. I walked out to the truck and saw the driver, I panicked when I saw the truck I couldn't breathe, the wheels was in the size of my car and it was so scary big. Because I realized that I should just be happy that we were alive. Two police officers came and, they took care of everything.

I was quite calm on the way home Janina was driving, I couldn't do anything but stare out the window and I was crying. When we came close to the house I felt so nervous and embarrassed, the dad was nice to me on the phone but anyway. I really starting to get to know these people and then something like this happens. But I know that they are very nice and smart people, so they threaded me well. The mother game me a hug and I was still crying.

We talked about everything, and I apologized over and over and said I cannot change anything I can only learn from this.

I hope they will keep me as their Nanny but I don't know I understand them, their babies is everything, that's what most important for them.

But we are all fine, we really had an angel helping us out tonight, and this is something I will never forget, this scary moment.

I learn something new about life every day here, it scares me to death but it's still wonderful and breathtaking.